Desiring God’s Will



This book completes the trilogy on Christian spirituality that started with Surrender to Love and also includes The Gift of Being Yourself.  Authors never get the final say on their titles, although almost always the title I submit ends up being the one used.  This book was an exception. I had entitled the book “Will and Desire,” because it is about the weakness of will power in contrast to the strength of desire.  But, the publisher wanted something with God’s Will in the title and they won that argument.  I don’t think of it as a book about God’s will; in my view it’s about the alignment of our hearts and desires with the heart of God.  But, noting that this is the book’s subtitle you get a little peak into the sorts of negotiations and compromises that go into book making!



Willing God’s Way

This is a book that I resisted writing for months. I thought I had written enough about wilfulness and surrender in the previous two books in this trilogy. I wanted to move on to other topics. I started another book but was unhappy with where it was going, troubled in my spirit. It was clearly my agenda—the fruit of my willful planning and resolve. How discouraging it was to again be reminded of the strength of my lust for self-determination and control, my deeply ingrained preference for my will over God’s will.

I wish I could write about things that I have finally and solidly learned, things that are once and for all behind me. But my experience—and, I believe, the truth about the spiritual journey in general—is that past challenges and struggles are never fully behind us in this life. The route for the transformational journey of Christian spirituality is never direct. Typically it involves revisiting territory through which we have already passed, and doing so over and over again!

Doing things “my way” comes naturally for all of us. Egocentricity and self-control are fundamental dynamics of the human soul. We know we are supposed to surrender to God’s will and may genuinely want to, but most of us continue to face the almost irresistible tendency to assert our own will. We overhear Jesus’ prayer in the garden of Gethsemane — “Not my will, but thine be done”—but have trouble honestly making it our own.

This book is an extension of ideas presented in the two previous books in this series — Surrender to Love and The Gift of Being Yourself. Surrendering to God’s will makes little sense if we are not first convinced of the depths of God’s love for us. But surrender is far from complete and we have yet to unwrap the gift of our true-self-in-Christ until we are fully convinced of the absolute trustworthiness of God’s will. Learning to prefer God’s way to ours and discovering our identity and fulfillment in God’s kingdom demands that we know Love, deeply and personally. Only then will it be possible to choose God with the totality of our being, not just our will.

The problem is that when we approach the task of choosing anything other than our own self and its immediate gratification, most of us automatically turn to willpower and resolve. Choosing God then becomes more a matter of grim determination than joyful surrender—closer to deciding to cut back on eating enjoyable foods than to following our heart to the Source of abundant life.

Another problem is that when we think of God’s will we normally assume that the challenge is how to know it rather than how to choose it. The focus on God’s will is thus misplaced—limited to points of major decisions. We fail to recognize that our problem is not so much knowing God’s way as being utterly convinced that choosing God is choosing life.

While the choices we make can be very important in our spiritual journey, we shall see in what follows that how we decide can often be as important as what we decide. Willpower, determination and discipline are not enough in Christ-following. The close interconnection of will and desire means that if Christ is to have our will, he must first have our heart.

The starting point in aligning our heart and will with the heart and will of God is to understand the difference between our natural wilfulness and the God-given gift of willingness. The first three chapters each explore one important facet of this difference. In chapter one we examine the dark side of wilfulness and the downside of discipline. Chapter two then looks at the differences between the ways of choosing associated with the kingdom of self and the kingdom of God, while chapter three takes what we learn about life in the kingdom of God and explores how our willing and choosing is transformed when it is shaped by love.

The next three chapters examine what it means to choose God. Chapter four focuses on learning attentive openness to the God who is attentively open and present to us. In chapter five we examine how willing God’s way involves the heart’s desires, not simply the head’s resolve, while chapter six explores the role of taking up our cross in our choosing of God. Finally, chapter seven draws these strands together by examining the process of discernment—not just in making major decisions but in the moment-by-moment flow of ordinary days.

Learning to desire God’s will is not something we can accomplish by resolve and willpower. As we shall see, it occurs only when we live so close to God’s heart that the rhythm of our own heartbeat comes to reflect the divine pulse. Then and only then will be able to truly pray, “Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.” Then and only then will this prayer be our deepest desire.


David Benner is always profitable to read. This little book reinforces well a truth that will enable the reader to live in joy. This, and the others in this trilogy (The Gift of Being Yourself and Surrender to Love), are all are in the great tradition of Brother Lawrence’s The Practice of the Presence of God. I buy them to give them away.

~ Thomas A. Stanwyck (

David Benner never disappoints. He is intelligent without being academic, psychologically astute without being trendy, spiritually profound without being pious. He clearly knows the landscape from which he dares to speak.

~ Richard Rohr, O.F.M., Center for Action and Contemplation

Benner has provided a masterful understanding of God’s will that rightly places the emphasis upon a loving, responsive relationship with God. This is one of the very few books on Christian spirituality that I couldn’t wait to get back to when I had to break off reluctantly for other duties.

~ M. Robert Mulholland

This is a really wonderful book, a powerful book, a life-giving book. Reading this book I came to know more fully than ever before how much God desires me.

~ Dom M. Basil Pennington, O.C.S.O.

Truly ecumenical, in the best sense of that word, the book achieves a happy balance of tradition and contemporary relevance.

~ Fr. Thomas Green, S. J.

Psychologically sound and spiritually compelling, this book moves us beyond our fear and suspicion that somehow God’s desire for us and ours for ourselves are mutually exclusive, to a path for discerning God’s will that is deeply satisfying because it is congruent with our authentic self in God.

~ Ruth Haley Barton

David G. Benner has done it again! Desiring God’s Will is the perfect capstone for one of the finest trilogies for Christian spiritual formation that has ever been written.

~ Gary W. Moon